haiz .. lost my 8310 .. dun ask how i lose it .. it is just a total mishap .. haix .. haix ..
I confess something. Something so important, so signficant in my life. My heart's abegging to tell the world, but times have not been right for me to tell. Rumors and all are just a bunch of imagination done up by people who are wanting to mark my fall, or mark my supposed desperation of girls. All in all, the targets given by them are all fakes, and they are merely my friends.
Well, some of these 'targets' are made up by me, in a way to decieve you. They are meant to make you think that I am attracted to someone else, so that you can leave your sights open, options open to anyone. They might range in the form of a cool hunk, to a nerdy guy, but still, these are options. I tried to decieve you further that I have a girlfriend outside. These were all in name of decieving you. However, time is short, and I have to make my move.
However, I have to say on our history. In secondary 1, I was a temporary class chairman, and more often than ever, I promised that I gave you nightmares. Nightmares, they were all in jest, as I tried to tease you, in my way. You were a bit amused, a bit agitated at times, but still, it got your attention. Then came secondary 2. I matured a little, or a lot, to some people's standards. I underwent a camp, to improve myself. I changed in person, became more open, more Americanized. I was the person that was the most open in thinking around in a conservative school. It was hard to fit in, but I made a lot of friends. I renewed my friendship with you, and tried to be a very nice person to you, though I tend to turn into suh a jerk at times. Haha. Those were the days.
Then in sec 3, I turned from a casual friend to a closer one. I saw that you had gone through a lot of crushes, and a couple of boyfriends. They were all too unlike you, and they had someone else in mind. I was there, helping you through all these. All these pressure from people that were a bit of acting that were looking like they were very concerned about you, but actually have someone else in mind. I was there, asking you this and that, thinking you could see through them, and at times, telling you that breaking up were the best idea. I was not the one behing these ideas, though having a crush on you last year for a short period of time did not count. I sincerely wanted to help you in all these relationship problems.
However lately, I developed some what of a different feeling for you. It is made up of respecting you, caring about you, sheltering you, asking you to be more alert around you. All these were just a part of protecting you, loving you. It is just part of me wanting to tell you, another part of me saying not. However, I chose to tell you, maybe in person tomorrow, but now virtually.
To this person :- I love you. Beyond reason. Beyond thoughts. Beyond fear. Beyond me.
I confess something. Something so important, so signficant in my life. My heart's abegging to tell the world, but times have not been right for me to tell. Rumors and all are just a bunch of imagination done up by people who are wanting to mark my fall, or mark my supposed desperation of girls. All in all, the targets given by them are all fakes, and they are merely my friends.
Well, some of these 'targets' are made up by me, in a way to decieve you. They are meant to make you think that I am attracted to someone else, so that you can leave your sights open, options open to anyone. They might range in the form of a cool hunk, to a nerdy guy, but still, these are options. I tried to decieve you further that I have a girlfriend outside. These were all in name of decieving you. However, time is short, and I have to make my move.
However, I have to say on our history. In secondary 1, I was a temporary class chairman, and more often than ever, I promised that I gave you nightmares. Nightmares, they were all in jest, as I tried to tease you, in my way. You were a bit amused, a bit agitated at times, but still, it got your attention. Then came secondary 2. I matured a little, or a lot, to some people's standards. I underwent a camp, to improve myself. I changed in person, became more open, more Americanized. I was the person that was the most open in thinking around in a conservative school. It was hard to fit in, but I made a lot of friends. I renewed my friendship with you, and tried to be a very nice person to you, though I tend to turn into suh a jerk at times. Haha. Those were the days.
Then in sec 3, I turned from a casual friend to a closer one. I saw that you had gone through a lot of crushes, and a couple of boyfriends. They were all too unlike you, and they had someone else in mind. I was there, helping you through all these. All these pressure from people that were a bit of acting that were looking like they were very concerned about you, but actually have someone else in mind. I was there, asking you this and that, thinking you could see through them, and at times, telling you that breaking up were the best idea. I was not the one behing these ideas, though having a crush on you last year for a short period of time did not count. I sincerely wanted to help you in all these relationship problems.
However lately, I developed some what of a different feeling for you. It is made up of respecting you, caring about you, sheltering you, asking you to be more alert around you. All these were just a part of protecting you, loving you. It is just part of me wanting to tell you, another part of me saying not. However, I chose to tell you, maybe in person tomorrow, but now virtually.
To this person :- I love you. Beyond reason. Beyond thoughts. Beyond fear. Beyond me.