hmmm .. i presume i didnt not blog for a whole long time . roughly a month and a week i suppose ..and a lot .. i mean a lot . of things happened along the way .. let's start from early april i suppose .. grandfather just past away .. had a whole week of mourning .. people cried their hearts out .. but i wonder .. he was a great person .. with a few flaws that might be frustrating to people .. but he was a generally a good man .. with heart of gold .. only that he was misunderstood at times .. anyway .. people who he was connected to will always b in his memory .. esp me .. haix .. but we must get on with life .. right ? .. anyway .. during that period of time i was feeling really down .. then was called back to sch .. teacher talked to my mum .. shook me up .. but it was just a wake up call for me ... i change anyway .. its for the good for me .. anyway .. i found someone witha golden heart .. but a confused mind ... as for beauty .. she's a stunner ? .. she was my life .. everything she was .. she was so nice to me .. she was my world .. my heart .. we shared so many simmilarities .. up to last count .. 33 ? .. yeah . we were like match made in heaven .. well .. the story went something like this .. she was having a very very rough patch with her bf .. who pratically didnt care about her @ all ..she was a beautiful lady ... such a precious heart . and she could not take herself to break up with her bf .. but the day came anyway .. he was trying to double time her .. and she went to call him to break off the rlsp .. and he was saying .. "fine by me .. just make sure that u dun get me into trouble .." wad kind of person is he ?? .. haix .. but old flame still burn .. and deeply .. wad to do ? .. this is life .. your first love is the person where u cannot give up so easily .. haix .. but its good being single again .. aniwae ... exams and studies are more important .. hmm .. but i just dun understand somethings .. if someone is sincerely deeply caring about the person .. why the other people would object .. especially i'm the person affected .. true .. i'm loud .. i act like a teacher's pet . but i'm not .. and i hate people who are so pissed by me and take their people against me ... if u got guts .. just tell me in my face .. i will just take it .. no need your so called *gang* ... its pissifying u know .. i'm known to be a american guy .. open-minded and all .. but lately .. its like the whole class girls against me .. except su yee .. she's a demure person .. but she has this personality that is so nice ... mayb that's y she the class vice-chairman .. but she has this attitude of a very nice friendly and understanding person... haix .. just wish more people like her .. if .. if .. but wad to do ? .. mayb i cannot be so choosy .. but all girls shld be @ least nice to people .. or at least be frank and forthcoming .. she like tt .. haix .. this my class girl .. at least dun use me like a piece of shit ... treat me with more respect .. if u treat me like this .. is it fair i treat you like a piece of shit ? .. is just fair isnt it ? .. say wad u have bf .. so wad .. you are acting like a piece of shit to me .. hahax ... remember tt time when he was in my sch .. he was acting like a little child .. and u want him as a bf .. u must be *BLIND* .. god be nice to ching how .. may he be blessed with better woman than that rotten piece of shit .. hahax.. fair isnt ? ... mayb i shld try some underhand method ... this is life aniwae .. hahax ... sometimes u fall .. sometimes u win .. haix .. but taking it to a higher level .. the teachers had a spat during one time too .. n some ppl instead of apologising .. went to the teacher to say whether he was bombed by the other teacher or not .. all about a few chocolates .. haix .. it started with me first .. asking for chocolate .. haix .. my fault lahx .. haix .. aniwae.. life is like that one ... and i realli miss love .. the feeling of giving and getting loved .. but exams are here aniwae .. this is more important ... but i still have to care about my frenx .. n deb ? .. if u ever ever see this blog .. just know that love is not a bed of roses .... thus hold on to the love u are having now .. aniwae ... vivienne ? .. who's the girl who gave me the calculator ..? .. i wanna thank her a lot a lot .. she's so nice ... thank her @ least .. or at least tell me her name can ? .. thanks .. =D ..